The time I confessed to my crush (Part 2)

 (cont.)

Cut to after COVID lockdown and people were allowed to touch again, I attended a uni Kpop clubbing event with a group of my friends (and I was almost certain he would be there too because upon some creepy stalking and word-of-mouth, he is actually a BNOC at uni).

Note: BNOC= Big Name on Campus

Hence why I was (not-so discreetly) scanning the dance floor to catch any sight of him. I spotted him with his whole BNOC gang at the edge of the dance floor, and when we locked eyes for a split second, HE SMILED AND WAVED AT ME! Uhm, HELLO? With our minimal interaction in class (twice, to be precise) and the lockdown happening, I honestly thought he had forgotten about my presence. I smiled back and gave him a small wave and immediately turned my back towards him pretending to talk to my friend while I'm trying not to collapse on the floor. 

Maybe it's his dashing smile, maybe it's the alcohol in my system, maybe it's my confidence but I immediately took his acknowledgement of me as a sign that he too, has a crush on me and all I needed to do to have a chance with him was to make it known that his feelings were reciprocated. 

So- I did a thing... I asked the friend I have just made randomly that night (to be honest I really don't know why I asked her out of everyone seeing that our acquaintance was literally less than 3 hours ago) to go up to him and tell him that I really like him. I know, I know, it's giving high school but your girl was drunk. And here comes the worst part: as soon as she started walking up towards him, I bolted and went home with the group of friends I came with. 

I couldn't sleep the whole night as I waited for my new friend to respond to what he had to say back to my confession, and was half expecting a text from him saying: "heyyyy so I heard and I am interested in you too." (seriously, what did I expect from this poor guy? We never had any proper conversation that isn't related to Korean). The next morning, I did indeed wake up to a text, but it wasn't the text I was hoping for...

Friend: "When I told him, he just said "Oh, okay...?".
Me: "Wait, that's it? :0"

Girlie, what did you expect? So yup, I got rejected, and rejected pretty savagely with a nonchalant "oh, okay", as if he has just heard a fact. My only regret with this whole incident is a) not doing it myself, and b) confessing WAYYYY too early as we barely interacted. A part of me still wonder what would he have said to my face if I was the one that went up to him and said it. 

It's way too late to lament about the past but it definitely did make me feel a lot better knowing that he glowed down in recent years and just look like a normal dude I'll pass by on the street without a second glance. However, words from a friend of mine who is family friends with him said that his family is loaded and is apparently related to the former Prime Minister of Singapore, Lee Kuan Yew. (I can't with this information because this just adds more to my embarrassment but in retrospect, he does give off rich kid vibes...)

Anyways, guy-who-shall-not-be-named, thanks for making my first year of uni so exhilarating, but I could definitely see now why we wouldn't have been compatible anyway.